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▶ Year || 502
▶ Season || Summer
▶ Temp || 74℉ (℃) - 100℉ (℃)
▶ Weather || With the end of Spring comes Summer's warm embrace. While some flourish in the comfortable glow of the sun, others take shelter from its sweltering midday heat. Even so, it is now that the continent bustles with life, for it won't be long until a cool chill returns.

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Thread of the Season
.. Cool your fever ..

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Ipomoea and Messalina

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Bexley gives him a cold, dark, beautiful smile. “Wanna see a trick?” she asks, eyes glowing with feral self-satisfaction. The bare of her teeth in a mock-grin is nothing less than terrifying. “I can make you see ghosts.” do the hungry ever sleep?

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▶ Age: 501 [Year ]
▶ Gender: she/her
▶ Orientation: Homosexual
▶ Breed: Welara
▶ Height: 14.3
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▶ Joined: 04-14-2018
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the darkness of a woman is such that,
stripped of our sight, we must feel our way through it




Winged Kirin | Welara | Black Spotted Blanket Appaloosa | Yellow Eyes


With sharp features and intense, extravagant expressions, Sabbath recreates any presence lost in her size in her looks. Her natural stance is confident and carries pride, her resting face nothing more than something akin to a glare. It's not that she can't help it, with her deep set, bright yellow eyes that burn a hole through her dark face. Sharply-lined cheek bones accent them with stress centered on seriousness.




EXTRAS
or stuff zuno couldn't figure out how to fit in the big description


- first line here.
we crawl,
we enter her circles of Hell,


  • Well Mannered
  • Intelligent
  • Patient
  • Motherly
  • Selfless
  • Truly cares for your ass
  • Thinks before Acting
  • Soft
  • Forcibly Cold
  • Lots of Anxiety and Self-Loathe
  • Secretive
  • Somewhat Naive
  • Flighty
  • Lets Emotions take the wheel
  • Shameful
  • Guilty of all of her mistakes
  • Lazy



It's easiest to start here, so we can prove she's worth than she makes herself out to be, that sometimes you only need to try to understand you're worth every bit of your time and places on this planet, which is exactly what Sikeax needs to do with herself.

She's lukewarm, drowning in the self-loathe that she can't seem to shake from her shoulders and has already begun to let it consume her again. She never truly escapes the agony of her depression and anxiety, no matter how hard she tries. It comes and goes, and it'd be a lie if I were to say that she didn't know this too.
Misfortune and mistakes have brought it in as far as her eyes can see and her mind can think of it when none of it is really her fault. Sikeax tries her best to do what is right and what will benefit those around her with so much selflessness in her heart that she sometimes forgets to stop and think about it, simply acting out when she's told herself time and time again that she needs to think to save herself. It's only fate that something always manages to catch her in the act and strikes her down, making her this way.
Sikeax loathes herself for the good in her, wanting so badly to have the courage and strength to be the sinner when she's become a saint at her own demise. Sainthood is where her strength is hidden away at, where she's grown so much from barely prevailing through her hardships to become a wonderful person that few will know the glory of being.
It obviously goes without saying that Sikeax will probably never know she's as good of a person as she is, too caught up in her personal agony and the fear of who she is and what she wants to do to notice.
The honest best of her resides in her ability to be a mother, a born-nurturer that blossomed in the art of healing, having become an impeccable healer before the weight of the task became too much, and her constant fretting and fear of failure slowly pulled her away from it. She's not very into teaching others her knowledge these days, scared of making others go through what she's been forced to go through. It's not actually worth that, but she'll never see that, too blind to catch on.
As for motherhood, Sikeax has reached a point that it borderlines a problem, tucking loose souls underneath her wings regardless of the consequences of it. Her broken up childhood makes her greedy to make others' better in any way she possibly can, but she fails to work it well into her personal problems, having at times abandoned and lost her own children in the process of fighting her own problems, acting as she sees selfishly to do what looks like the last resort and the best possible outcome.
I'd like to admit here that this is what has screwed her the most: the failure of her ability to be a mother no matter how she wants to be one. Sikeax has only somewhat-successfully mothered one, and that there would be Hobgoblin, who has been glued to her existence since his birth. Even then that's not truly an accomplishment.
The lack of ability to keep up with her most recent children has left her where she barely has room for much more in her heart, haunted by the fact that she brought twins into a world that was dying with so much selfishness that it's fucked them over and she's lost them completely. It's made her more bitter towards the world, back to that lukewarm feeling that rolls off her when she refuses to give herself up. She's gotten so secretive out of the fear of attachment, feeling as if she's gonna fuck you up too like she did what was supposed to be the most important thing in the world to her, commanding herself that she give you the best of life by avoiding having you near.
She's running out of places in her heart to make room for others simply because Sikeax is scared of being who she really is, no matter how hard her soul tries to be that.




EXTRAS
or stuff zuno couldn't figure out how to fit in the big description


-Polygamous and will not bat an eye to your monogamy or gender. Believes more in loving the person for who they are, not the body they're in
- Wears her mistakes and misfortunes as her own personal baggage, which often makes her as sad she is
- Seriously loves Zhu over every single one of her other children, regardless of how she might make it out.
- Most importantly, the only thing that she's ever trusted wholly after becoming a wraith is Hobgoblin.
- While philosophical, Sikeax has little care or interest in the Gods these days, especially those in Novus for they are not what she sees as her own, a.k.a. the Gods of Helovia.
- GIRL CAN HOLD GRUDGES FOR FOREVER YOU BEST BELIEVE IT
- Along with her grudges, Sikeax can be surprisingly petty with them
- A small portion of her is manipulative, but it's unlikely she notices she's doing it if she is.
- Has no real determination. Don't believe it? The majority of her successful things have been achieved by being in the right place at the right time or doing what she does best, not really paying much attention other than doing what she's supposed to do.
- Wants to see the world be a better place, but has no drive to change it out of fear.
until we sympathize with her sorrow,
until we learn from her rage.




Bacchus is, hmm... a young man still, I guess. His youth is in his face like war paint: never having to particularly care for it or be aware that it's there, but either way, it's there. He doesn't seem to really enjoy that it's there either. Oh well, you can see the age catching up on him and the wear he's worn into high cheeks and what must've been gorgeous striking eyes when he was nothing but a teenager. They probably gleamed in their original light, accented by the pale pink of skin that pushes through his thin coat. Their homes are delicate and smooth, the rounding gently squeezed into a thin taper. Each eyelash is frail as a porcelain, and coloured to match.




EXTRAS
or stuff zuno couldn't figure out how to fit in the big description


-Polygamous and will not bat an eye to your monogamy or gender. Believes more in loving the person for who they are, not the body they're in
- Wears her mistakes and misfortunes as her own personal baggage, which often makes her as sad she is
- Seriously loves Zhu over every single one of her other children, regardless of how she might make it out.
- Most importantly, the only thing that she's ever trusted wholly after becoming a wraith is Hobgoblin.
- While philosophical, Sikeax has little care or interest in the Gods these days, especially those in Novus for they are not what she sees as her own, a.k.a. the Gods of Helovia.
- GIRL CAN HOLD GRUDGES FOR FOREVER YOU BEST BELIEVE IT
- Along with her grudges, Sikeax can be surprisingly petty with them
- A small portion of her is manipulative, but it's unlikely she notices she's doing it if she is.
- Has no real determination. Don't believe it? The majority of her successful things have been achieved by being in the right place at the right time or doing what she does best, not really paying much attention other than doing what she's supposed to do.
- Wants to see the world be a better place, but has no drive to change it out of fear.
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