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a silent fury no torment could tame; - Amaroq - 08-05-2020 amaroq
in his own country Death can be kind
@Avesta | RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Avesta - 08-15-2020 Half of my soul loves the craggy forests and the pines that lean more towards the horizon than they do the sun. That part of me loves the mix of damp loam and the predator musk that lingers on my tongue like stolen drams and bottles of wine. There is death in the forest here, and life, and things that turn the edges of my wolf into snow, and muscle, and tendon as his insides beg to come out (and his belly begs to devour the world). I could be happy here where the dead world runs into the eternal sea. I could be home. But then there is the half of me that loves the waves, and the storm, and the taste of froth leaving crystals of salt on my lips like it's spun sugar instead of sea. I love the roar in my ears that makes my heart stumble in my chest, I love the lighthearted feeling that makes my insides want to come out. It's darker than the love I have for my sister, for my wolf, for anything in the world that might be both attachment and chain. It's darker. Like me it's almost black in the moonlight. And the moonlight cannot reach me here beneath the sea-craving pines and the rotten trunk of trees the tidal wave killed. I am nothing more than a sliver of a girl in the darkness, a speck of gray half-dead star next to the bone-white shimmer of Foras. I am-- I am-- I am a unicorn with teeth that know nothing about innocence when I snarl as my wolf does at the unicorn stalking through the darkness that should belong to me and me alone. @Amaroq RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Amaroq - 08-20-2020 amaroq
in his own country Death can be kind
@Avesta | RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Avesta - 08-25-2020 This, a meeting of two monsters in the winter-woods, sits in my soul like law etched into marble. The curl of a lips, the flash of a fang, the snarl and the spit of creatures driven by hunger and need. His language, older perhaps, is no different than mine and my wolf's. We are gods in this language as dead things are to the lotus flowers and the carrion birds. We are masters of it. By want of war and knowledge of it we are masters (and masterpiece makers) of this dark-woods and all the monsters pretending ownership of it. I smile when he answers with both the language of man and the sounds of beasts. There is a wave fat with ice in his growl and seaweed tangled between his words. But I am winter, and the taken-by-the-sea-girl, and I rest by head by a wolf who turns his insides out instead of growling, and I there is more than a wave in my voice. There is a distant tidal roar, a whisper of bone caught in the surf, a winter-middle instead of winter-start. “Do you think it wise,” I unfold from the moonlight in the same way my mother once did, “for the hunter to taunt the wolves to leave their own den, in their forest, in which the hunter is nothing more than an interloper?” And perhaps he was foolish enough to think me a thing hiding in the dark forest, a wraith instead of the ruination of the ghosts. Perhaps he did not listen to the war in my steps and the hunger gurgling like a brook in my belly. Or perhaps he heard all those things as we approached each other in the gloaming with brine on our lashes like snowflakes. Perhaps he thinks himself wolf instead of hunter. I laugh, into the darkness like a falling star, as I move close enough to count the speaks of color on his pale belly (and hip, and neck). My memories draw constellations between the darker stains and my hunger tells me to connect them with lines of blood instead of light. And I almost ask him if he wants to be sword, or dragon, or mortal, by the grace of my creativity. I almost ask him a hundred different questions as I raise my horn to tap a note of warning against his while Foras finishes becoming the vision of the monster that lives waiting, and ravenous, inside my bones. Instead I ask him nothing else with our horns resting against each other on a battle-field (like we are waiting only for the drums to start their song). Into the darkness, blacker where his shadow falls against my lips, I smile. @Amaroq RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Amaroq - 10-03-2020 amaroq
in his own country Death can be kind
@Avesta | RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Avesta - 10-10-2020 Of course my teeth are the first pieces of me to answer him. They gleam and gloam like stars in the dark fridigness of space. But my teeth are no promise, no mere hint of a monster sleeping in unicorn bones. No. My teeth are nothing like his when I peel back my lips to make them more than a promise. My smile is not a promise. My smile is the holy scripture of violence. His frost cools the fever in my blood. I become the winter sea instead of the summer, blood sea. And I wonder if he will willingly dash his heart on the ice of me. I lean into the frost and blink the snow from my lashes as it gathers there when I drag my horn down the length of his. Our horns moan and screech and I wonder if I am just as lovely made of ice as I am made of flesh. Foras steps closer. In this form he is a god of winter, a wolf of the mountain peaks, a thing that wants to drink deep, deep, deep of the sea-god that stole half my soul from him. He smells like the bottom of the sea. He tells me even though he knows I already know. Foras hates the sea as much as my half-gone soul loves it. This unicorn surely is smart enough, old enough, to read the words of our religion.. “A hunter might ask that same question of a wolf snapping his teeth at his throat.”. The scripture of my violence curls around itself in all the same ways Foras’s outsides curl around his insides. Can he see it in my gaze? Or can he sense it when I drag the point of my horn back to the point of his? I whisper, wake up to the diamond dust of his frost that’s gathered on my cheeks. It rises from my skin in pale whispers of winter that pause just under my eyes like arrows begging entrance. “I am better.” And when I say the words his own frost spirals back to the point at which our two horns meet. @Amaroq RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Amaroq - 10-23-2020 amaroq
in his own country Death can be kind
@Avesta | RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Avesta - 11-01-2020 Foras has not shifted, or at least not fully, since the war. Here in this tame world parts of him have only suggested violence and winter. And I have forgotten, as all dead things forget, how grotesque my beloved wolf can become. But I remember now. Oh I remember now. Perhaps I was wrong to think of us, me and this old thing, as unicorns and wolves. Perhaps I was terribly wrong. For there is nothing like Foras in my snarling mouth full of fangs when the stallion slams into my head. I do not growl when my vision flashes back. I do not froth and foam with rage when he warns me as a million men have tried to warn me before (and when I tore their tongues from their mouth I found that I enjoyed the sounds of their warnings when they turned to bleating lambs). My vision lingers in the black for longer than it should and I know like all things from war know, that my time to kill him is unspooling like thread. I recall, as I hear my wolf’s bones snap and shift like a hundred stones rolling down the mountains, the last time a man raised his sword at the curl of my throat. I remember when he told me you are too pretty and young to die in war. I remember the leering way he licked his teeth and straightened a noble’s crown upon his brow. I remember now how I did not laugh or spit insults. I said nothing at all to him when I smiled like a dainty thing only just realizing that she was knee deep in blood. And I made no sound when I let his sword scrape along my neck just so that I could get closer, and closer, to those leering black eyes. I let Foras eat his corpse. I let him eat him right there in the middle of the killing field. I did not make him wait. My vision grows darker still with white flashing warnings spidering across the black. I know that my last thread of this moment has gone from foot to inch. Sometimes I forget that I am a dead but mortal thing. I forget that I can still die. But I know I’m not dying now, only stumbling through the sheer brutality of his hit. Still I am aware enough, enraged enough, to spit blood out of my mouth where I bit my own cheek. I will not be sorry when I wash the blood from my monster’s fur in the sea. And like before I do not laugh as an old thing tells me what I should be. My voice is a wavering and terrible sort of clear when I cut my wolf free of the frail leash I hold him with , “Eat him.” Foras needs no permission though, he did not need it the moment the stallion slammed his skull into mine. He tilts his head, now more sinew than fur, and brays to the moon for blood. His body, now so much larger than mine, is leaping for the stallion’s spine before his howling cry ends. The stallion really should not have hit me so hard, Foras might have forgiven him in the same way he forgives me. Might have. In the darkness of my clearing vision I watch as Foras becomes the beast of battle, that with a dragon, won a war. @Amaroq RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Amaroq - 11-13-2020 amaroq
in his own country Death can be kind
@Avesta | RE: a silent fury no torment could tame; - Avesta - 11-21-2020 In my monster’s eyes I do not feel pain but only see the millions of ways that we (that I) might cause it. Each shard of moonlight looks like a million caught stars reflecting on the ghosts cast up in the sea mist. The sand, and spit, flying into the moonlight as we hunt glimmer more like blood than bits of earth and wolf. In my monster’s mouth I can taste the brine of the unicorn’s sweat and ice as she runs. I can taste the sweetness of ice that to anyone else, anything else, might have tasted like salt instead of sugar spun. We have forgotten the taste, the flavor, the euphoria, of all the things that come before the hunt when the lamb’s bellies are still whole. Novus has made us tame-- tame enough that we talk to mean instead of devour them by sight and sight alone. But I have been corrected, we have been corrected, and now (now!) we will not forget again. And perhaps I understand the brutality of mother more than I had before, as I watch the stallion run into the sea as it will save him. Tomorrow I’ll ask Fable to take me swimming. Tomorrow I’ll ask him to hunt with me. Tomorrow I’ll hunt as a young unicorn and not a wolf. Tonight though, as my Wolf froths and foams at the tide, as he licks the taste of the stallion from his lips and his claws, I will remember each way I saw to cause pain. I will remember how to felt to run, and bray, and take flesh between my jaws and bite down. Tonight I will, because the darkness is starting to thicken to oil, dream of vengeance and a hundred needles of pain that are not my own. @Amaroq |