Things have been very different lately and I'm not sure how I feel about it. At first, it was me getting my powers (not only that but it was while I was nearly eaten by a monster), then Momma became Sovereign and then Auntie Antiope left. It's a lot for me to process and I'm still really confused.

I don't think things will change too much. Momma is a lot busier now, but she still makes time for our cuddles and storytime by the fire. Bram seems to spend more time with me lately and I know it's because Momma's worried for me. She can tell I've seemed down, but how can I tell her? She would either get overly protective or overly obsessed with the idea that I inherited her magic. I know she'd want to train me and I'm not sure if I want her to. Maybe it would help me figure things out, but she can be too rough sometimes. I don't blame her really, she comes from a soldier background, but I'm no soldier. I'm just… Maeve. I don't really know what I am, but I know at the least I don't want to be someone who can control fire.

I remember my talk with Uncle Tenny (Shadow Man) and it helped a little. Honestly though, I still want to find some way to take the magic back or give it to someone else. I've never really talked to Caligo before, but I know Shadow Man talks to her all the time. I guess I could try and see what happens?

At least for today, I want to try not thinking about it. The Court is hosting a beach party and there's a lot of fun things going on. There's horses playing some kind of game where they hit each other with beach balls, others are collecting shells or making sand castles on the beach. I don't really care much about the game, so I trot over to the beach.

As I watch some make sand castles, it reminds me of me and Aspara's snow animals (or blobs would be more accurate). I frown a little since I'm not sure where my friend is now, but maybe I'll find her later and see if she wants to try again. I think sand might be a little easier to mold together than snow.

I pick up one of the baskets placed in rows on the beach and start looking around for anything that catches my eye. Rory flies above me, but low enough that he's closer to me. He looks with me and already points out the prettiest piece of purple sea glass. I'm thankful for his bird vision here. I'm hoping I can find enough materials to make a pretty necklace for Momma.

As I place it in my basket, I also notice a couple sea shells. One has a spiral pattern to it and the other is an oval, but more flat. I decide to put them both in my basket just for fun. "I wonder why sea shells come in different shapes and sizes," I say to Rory, although I'm mostly thinking out loud. I know they have to come from the ocean, but where exactly? Were they once creatures or belonged to creatures and now they belong here on the shore? I find myself having many questions.