i'm up against these things i can't see ;
they don't compare ; make me believe, make me believe
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ometimes I wonder if adults remember what it was like when they were my age. When Elena is confused that I'm not tired yet, this is what makes me wonder. There's just too much of the world to see to just sleep, of course I'd rather be going out and exploring. It didn't help much hearing about the mountains either and only made me feel more eager. I love looking up at the sky and trying to figure out the constellations, but to have an even better view? I wanted that really badly. I don't know if Momma would like it, but maybe I could try to convince her to bring me up there some day. I think she'll make me grow a bit more first.
But now after seeing the bird fall, this is all that feels important now.
I hear Elena call my name, but it feels far away almost. It's not long until she's by my side and we're heading off to try and find the poor bird. I'm thankful to not be alone in this because all I can feel is panic. As much as I like to do some things myself, I'm not really confident in trying to do everything alone. Maybe someday, but this seemed too great to figure out myself.
We keep running with Elena leading the way. My breaths are getting shorter from the running and the panic, but I'm determined. I've never felt this great need before. It's not something I can ignore either and I'm glad that Elena didn't try to talk me out of it like Momma would. When we do finally find the bird, it's fallen over a rock. It looks terrible and the sight makes my heart sink. There are so many questions swirling in my head and I just want to make sure it's okay.
"No," I croak, tears welling up in my eyes. I don't know how to heal. I don't know anything. This bird is going to die because I don't know enough. I can't explain it, but I feel drawn to him and it's making me desperate to help. We're too far away for me to run back to the Court and look for a medic. That's also if they would know how to heal a bird and not just a horse.
"Do you know?" I ask, looking back up at Elena. "Please… we have to help him." I'm begging her and hope to Caligo that we can figure out some kind of miracle.
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