“It was love at first sight, at last sight, at ever and ever sight.”
There a moment, a selfish and weak moment, in which she lets her heart run and her mind follow along behind it. All her love runs in the wake of them together, like bits of golden pollen trapped on a west wind. She never stops to wonder what flowers might grow when they go to seed, or what color they might be. The only thing she cares about in that moment is running, until the world falls into the sea, and the sea into the endless black universe.
Even then she's not sure if she would want to stop running.
But then he's saying a I love you and over and Isra remembers that there is another over they have to find. And even though she wants to go over the end of world with him, she knows that this world needs a queen with wicked magic. Isra knows that Raum, that all the evil in the world, needs a blade forged just to cleave their tainted souls from their bones.
Isra also knows that she is the blade. They are blades.
So she sighs under the gentle tough of his magic and water. She leans into it like a star leaning into the smoky blue morning horizon. She dissolves into it. She comes back up on the other side, where there is only endless desert heat, and her heart given shape, and flesh, dropped beside her like an oak in a birch forest. “Then don't go back.” Her lips say to her heart, tracing the words with bloody spring water across his nose. “Stay with me. Because it will end. We will make it end.” Each drop of her magic is whispering to her of ends, of how it feels to become a god, or a blade, to shred evil from the world.
Isra would become something other than a unicorn who loves the stars, or a mare who knows how to die. She would become anything for Eik, if it meant that they would stay forever (and even longer than that).
She is not thinking of poultice, or kings, or pain when she presses herself to him. All she is thinking of it Eik, and forever, and together. Her skin feels like molten earth and her heart feels as selfish as the sun that kills every constellations. Isra is only thinking of Eik.
“I know.” She says against his hip, with teeth, with heart, with love. The tune of her voice on his skin is singing, stay, stay, stay. But what her voice isn't saying is the ways she knows why Raum won't touch her again.
Because it's the how Raum wont touch her that she's locking away from Eik even as she presses each inch of her against each inch of him.
In the end, she's more selfish, than the sun.
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