she was powerful not because she wasn't scared,
but because she went on strongly despite her fear.
but because she went on strongly despite her fear.
As he spoke of personalities clashing, Maerys could not help but remember what that truly looked like, when a glance, touch, or one small comment could stir a hurricane of harsh and horsed insults. Arguing was when each individuals' Pandora's boxes were unsealed, sending each word full speed to shatter the other's soul into millions of broken, bitter shards.
Arguing - the serious variety, with words that could not be taken back and feelings that could not be mended - was cruel because no relationship was ironclad in the beginning and it would never return to the solid-state it once was. "Aye, 'tis true," she nodded slowly. "I've seen many examples of this in mine own life," but she offered no further. (She never thought it was her place to share other people's business anyway.)
Her regard had pushed her to inquire of his choice in alignment and it seemed he was more than willing to divulge the information she so curiously sought with no qualms - which she was silently grateful for.
But his answer was more heartbreaking than he makes it sound; he weaves a tale of loneliness and separation with her words.
It is often said that once one has mastered being alone, they are ready for the company of others, but that it is not an easy and effortless transition. Maerys had been alone once, when she had been transitioning between Varak and Novus, and seeing how everyone's life journey was separated from her own - when the only heart beating around her was her own for so long - the switch wasn't something she'd been ready for.
She wished she could tell the stallion that if the reason he was alone was that he'd never connected to others in the right way, the right time, or the right setting and that he'd learn eventually that being fully alone was... well, not all that great. The life of a vagabond was a complicated and difficult life and it only worked for a select few, the majority just did not know how beautiful life was with constant companionship. Then again, Maerys figured he probably had friends that helped him with the loneliness he felt at times. "If thee would ever endeavor to see Delumine in the future, it would be mine own honor to show thee around," she mused kindly. "If not to show thou court life, at least to show thee an area not before witnessed by thine own eye."
He is quick to ask her about her rank - soldier - and to mention his half-sister. Maerys wonders quietly about why she chose her rank and there are too many answers to narrow it down to one. She liked the lack of chaos that the soldier's duties brought to her. She liked having a team that she could benefit and that could benefit her. She liked that she knew she could protect herself. She liked knowing that she could avenge her family. She liked a lot of things about it. The position gave her sanity, something to focus on instead of spending days wondering what was happening in Varak and if she should return. It helped her make a positive difference in her court which could spread outwards through Novus which is something she always wanted to do. Why shouldn't she back a court that valued morality and neutrality? Delumine wasn't corrupted by the horrible things other courts could be and focused itself on the pursuit of knowledge and good-naturedness which was a cause Maerys found herself devoted to time and time again.
"You know when something doth feel so perfect thy heart throbs? 'Tis when thee know thou art doing what thee loves and... this feeling flutters through thee as if thou art an excited child." She felt at peace as she spoke; the girl believed everything she said wholeheartedly. "There art vast and various reasons I has't chosen to be a soldier, one answer cannot offer justice." She agreed with his sister and more, if it was possible.
Arguing - the serious variety, with words that could not be taken back and feelings that could not be mended - was cruel because no relationship was ironclad in the beginning and it would never return to the solid-state it once was. "Aye, 'tis true," she nodded slowly. "I've seen many examples of this in mine own life," but she offered no further. (She never thought it was her place to share other people's business anyway.)
Her regard had pushed her to inquire of his choice in alignment and it seemed he was more than willing to divulge the information she so curiously sought with no qualms - which she was silently grateful for.
But his answer was more heartbreaking than he makes it sound; he weaves a tale of loneliness and separation with her words.
It is often said that once one has mastered being alone, they are ready for the company of others, but that it is not an easy and effortless transition. Maerys had been alone once, when she had been transitioning between Varak and Novus, and seeing how everyone's life journey was separated from her own - when the only heart beating around her was her own for so long - the switch wasn't something she'd been ready for.
She wished she could tell the stallion that if the reason he was alone was that he'd never connected to others in the right way, the right time, or the right setting and that he'd learn eventually that being fully alone was... well, not all that great. The life of a vagabond was a complicated and difficult life and it only worked for a select few, the majority just did not know how beautiful life was with constant companionship. Then again, Maerys figured he probably had friends that helped him with the loneliness he felt at times. "If thee would ever endeavor to see Delumine in the future, it would be mine own honor to show thee around," she mused kindly. "If not to show thou court life, at least to show thee an area not before witnessed by thine own eye."
He is quick to ask her about her rank - soldier - and to mention his half-sister. Maerys wonders quietly about why she chose her rank and there are too many answers to narrow it down to one. She liked the lack of chaos that the soldier's duties brought to her. She liked having a team that she could benefit and that could benefit her. She liked that she knew she could protect herself. She liked knowing that she could avenge her family. She liked a lot of things about it. The position gave her sanity, something to focus on instead of spending days wondering what was happening in Varak and if she should return. It helped her make a positive difference in her court which could spread outwards through Novus which is something she always wanted to do. Why shouldn't she back a court that valued morality and neutrality? Delumine wasn't corrupted by the horrible things other courts could be and focused itself on the pursuit of knowledge and good-naturedness which was a cause Maerys found herself devoted to time and time again.
"You know when something doth feel so perfect thy heart throbs? 'Tis when thee know thou art doing what thee loves and... this feeling flutters through thee as if thou art an excited child." She felt at peace as she spoke; the girl believed everything she said wholeheartedly. "There art vast and various reasons I has't chosen to be a soldier, one answer cannot offer justice." She agreed with his sister and more, if it was possible.
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