She has seen the stag too.
She watched how it paced, at first bold and brave.
Then she saw how it took flight, frightened of a girl who stank of death.
Or it was not the smell of her… maybe it knew?
Had the trees, the plants, the birds and the insects been whispering? Did tales of her trickle through of how there is a golden kelpie who hunted a friend and turned him? A girl not strong enough to stop her kelpie-nature. A girl too weak to walk the path she wished to.
As she watched the stag flee, she knows how vain she is. Her tragedy belongs only to her and to him, Torix.
Oh. Torix.
Guilt is lead within her. It weighs her limbs her heart and her soul. But it is puckered, broken metal too. The edges of it grate her into pieces. Sereia is crumbling as she walks, she is turning into nothingness.
How can she move on from this? How can she ever find peace with herself?
Death had seemed a sweet escape, but her morals are too high too complex. She will not take her life by blade or by blow. She does not think that is right, or fair. But if she slowly dies because she will not eat, well, she thinks that is fair. Her lips curl without humour at the irony of herself.
She would have spiraled deeper into these morbid, sad thoughts. She was sinking, sinking, until he voice somes like a line for her to cling to. And she does, the kelpie turns to him from where she roams listless and barely awake. She looks to her king as he steps out of the emerald brush. The sea-girl smiles but it is no smile at all and it does not touch her lips…
“Your majesty,” her greeting is soft as she tips her golden eyes up to him in question. When he nears too much, she steps back. She possesses no trust in herself. She keeps from him in case he too becomes like Torix. Though she thinks he could kill her before she gets close. Maybe he is one of the few who could stop her frenzied nature when it comes.
“How can I help you?” A humbled whisper. It may be an eternity before she can bring herself to smile again.
@Ipomoea
an unspoken soliloquy of dreams
~ Ariana
